high school. need i say more. the most awkward and painful years of everyone's life. between the backstabbing, cheating, lying, rumors, and every other horrible thing that comes to mind, one can only pray that high school will fly by. and it does. four years flies by like 4 minutes. in those four years, people think that they grow up and mature so much, but reality check... you do not. only after high school do you really begin discovering who you are.
here's a glimpse into my story. i wasn't the prettiest, the smartest, the most athletic, artistic, musical, or whatever. i wasn't popular, or have a million friends. i could honestly count with one hand how many friends i had. yes, actual friends, not just people that you would smile to their face, and talk smack about 10 minutes later. and you know what, one handful of friends was all that i really needed. i didn't go to prom, or parties, or get drunk every weekend. all of this probably seems like completely untrue, considering the generation we live in, but it's all the truth. i never felt deprived though. i was and still am totally content with my life.
let's fast forward 3 years later. high school seems like such a thing of the past. i can't believe it, but i came out .. a survivor. yes it's possible. :) i'm going to college in the best city in the world, where no one else from my hs went to, and i got a chance to start completely fresh. it was one of the awkward moments. i was so happy to start completely fresh, but a little scared not knowing anyone. but i am SO HAPPY with my decision.
so let's get to the real point of this post, and my need to express my thoughts into words. around 2 years after high school, random people from high school ... ahem *guys* started talking to me. given, during this time frame, i changed, not drastically, but there were some noticeable differences. i wasn't the same person from 2 years ago, but then again, who was. it's strange. people that never once talked to me in high school, now wanted to talk and whatever. hence my title to this post.
but ladies, if this story sounds familiar, and i'm sure it will ring a bell, do yourselves a favor.. don't settle. high school wasn't one of my shining moments, and now that i am genuinely happy and comfortable with myself, i don't think it is fair that people can walk out, or not be there for you in your not so shining moments, and be all involved when you're doing well. to me, this is not acceptable. and for now, i am okay with being by myself.
**word to the wise** don't go out looking for someone or something, because then you're settling. let whatever may come to you.
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